Been freaking out because a few days ago we’ve been told we might have to move house. So we went to visit two flats, which ended up being grotty and smelly and we figured out we can’t afford either of them anyway. Not a chance. We’re gonna be really stuck if Lee doesn’t get more overtime. Worst case scenario is that we might have to go back to Devon and I complete my final year of uni some other time. It would suck to be a uni-drop-out just because of financial issues.
I went to see a new guy today, he was really cool :) he taught me lots of things about my anxiety and the areas of my brain that it affects and in what way, and it makes soooo much sense and it’s a lot more detail than what I’ve read in textbooks or learnt in class, much more emotional and personal and individualistic.
So it’s been a mixed week. Lotsss of anxiety and stress but also a Lovely Meade and a nice guy and a good weekend ahead with gigs and friends :)
A little risky as I can’t be sure I’ll finish my essay by Thursday but it’s almost a week so I’m nearly confident that I’ve got it covered.
Get this, right. I have to write about masculinity in relation to emotional and physical strength blah blah. So when I came across this book “Masculinity and Power” by A. Brittan, I thought. Hey, this might be useful.
“Man is embarrassed by the vulnerability of his penis. He often finds it ridiculous in its normal state - the penis and testicles with their gentle sway are more reminiscent of the udders of a half starved goat than the instrument of power he wants to have between his legs”.